9.18.2018

Trying to Catch Up

Do not give up, just keep swimming, just keep moving, don't give up.....

Recently, I feel I am in a constant state of trying to catch up in all aspects of my life. Time seems to be running out left and right and I am scrambling to get the bare necessities done. Ironically, I just listened to a podcast on time and as much as I want to say I was sitting back, relaxing, and listening....I wasn't. I was plugging through data entry, multi-tasking, and listening. You can listen to it HERE. Yes, I need more hours in the day! And yes, I strive to stop and smell the roses and not be too busy for my loved ones but then....how can I do all I need to do?

I can't say I can cut much out of my daily to do's. I am not going to cut my time with God, taking care of my family, work (although some days I may want to!), and all those household chores (but I do less than I hope for). And then there is exercising. That is one thing that tends to be cut back to 10-15 minutes when I fully know I do need a good hour a day to stay at my best emotionally. But I am tired.

It is a double-edged sword - sleep more, workout less, and be more tired or wake up early, workout more, and be tired in a different way...but often this different way is indeed a better way.

Logically, I know this but right now I am tired and struggling to catch up. I have a never ending work project with no end in sight and no sense of accomplishment, I have a crazy week with extra horse lesson days and more stable hours for darling daughter, and I still have the clothes to do, lunches to make, and dinner to make....and I am flopping. I even forgot to make my child's lunch today as I rushed out the door to work....late....once again. And I barely had time to run a mile! One lousy mile!!!!

On top of that, the things I can turn to for motivation are even kicking me in the butt. My fitbit challenge group is leaving me behind as I struggle to get my steps in because I am stuck in the car, at my desk, in meetings, dying to workout and move, and trying to get all that I need to do done....and this includes constant double scheduling of meetings and having to say, nope, can't be in two places at once and then once again, running out the door late to go get darling daughter from school too often than I would like to rush.

Yesterday, darling daughter even said, "ENOUGH! Everyone is RUSHING me!!!" I get it, sweetie, I get it.

I am feeling rushed, pushed, and asked to give more, more, more and barely have the time to take care of me. How can I stop and smell the roses when I am waist deep in dirty laundry...and I am doing a load almost every single day?! And today I need to start the next load when I finally get home close to 6 pm (and this is after leaving the house at 5:30 am!).

Each time I walk into the kitchen there are more dirty dishes to wash and each step in the bathroom leaves me with a dirty counter, sink, toilet, or floor that needs to be tended to.

Oh...and the squeaking pets. Literally by the way, squeaking and rattling saying "Feed ME!" but honestly, those pets are a breath of fresh air (if you ignore the stinky cages that are wreaking out to me....CLEAN ME!). At least when I feed them they seem to say, "Thank you!" and look genuinely happy that I am there.

Okay, darling daughter is pretty darn good at saying thank you too and is being pretty darn forgiving that I forgot to make her lunch. She is a great back-up plan and before you tell me she can help more, she helps A LOT! But right now she is also struggling to balance it all in these crazy weeks as she has more make up lesson days, homework, and trying to find moments where she can stop and smell the roses.

Somehow I need to carve out time to get a good run in very, very soon to help recalibrate my emotional self. Anyone want to shove me out of bed at 3 am tomorrow?

Daily Gratitude: I am thankful for all that God has given me.

Daily Bible Verse: Come now, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go into such and such a town and spend a year there and trade and make a profit”— yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes. Instead you ought to say, “If the Lord wills, we will live and do this or that.” ~ James 4:13-15

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