9.19.2018

Up by 4 and Ready to Go!

Each day is a fresh start to get it right and today's post is a companion to yesterday's post, Trying to Catch Up.

As much as I want to say I accomplished all my goals last night and today, I didn't. But I wanted to add to the story the small accomplishments so that you don't lose hope.

I was up and moving this morning by 4:00 am! I was slowly rolling out of bed just after 3:30 am after laying there a bit and thinking, "Really?!", but I succeeded in getting up. A huge motivating factor was the load of clothes I went to bed with them still tumbling in the dryer. Our washer and dryer are outside so I knew they would pick up some night moisture so they needed a little tumble more and needed to be folded. So I wandered out into the dark wrapped up in a lovely rope from my sister and nieces, got the dryer tumbling, and went in to start coffee, put dishes away, start the diffuser, feed the pets, and sit down for my morning bible and devotional reading...sipping on that coffee.

Then it was time to gather the clothes, put the horse's baby pads and towels into the dryer (yes, I started those last night on my way to bed), warm up the cold coffee, take a couple more sips, fold the clothes, and look at the clock. Nope. No workout time as it was time to actually remember to pack the lunch for darling daughter, get mine packed, change clothes, and head to work.

Where does the time go?

I did pull off a morning coffee break mile run around the office after the sun came up and after chatting with darling daughter on her way to school - gotta love that morning ritual! Kinda makes being a working mom more bearable.

Am I feeling recharged? Nope.

I still feel disheartened I got no real running and working out time in but trust the process. Perhaps this is an unexpected recovery week as my body does feel beat up and I am still so tired. Barely keep my eyes open tired.

But it is also a time to remember where I have been and where I am going.

Today is day 2,456 of my running streak. That is 6 years, 8 months, and 20 days of running at least a mile and that is worth celebrating. In those days, I have had many weeks like this but I have also had amazing long run, high mileage, lots of cross training weeks. It is the ebb of flow of life and instead of fighting it, I just need to embrace it. And I am thankful for each of those days, each mile no matter how slow or how fast, and each run no matter how long or how short.

Each day is a new day, a fresh start, and I know I will wake up rejuvenated again....if not today, tomorrow, and if not tomorrow, than the next morrow.

God bless!


9.18.2018

Trying to Catch Up

Do not give up, just keep swimming, just keep moving, don't give up.....

Recently, I feel I am in a constant state of trying to catch up in all aspects of my life. Time seems to be running out left and right and I am scrambling to get the bare necessities done. Ironically, I just listened to a podcast on time and as much as I want to say I was sitting back, relaxing, and listening....I wasn't. I was plugging through data entry, multi-tasking, and listening. You can listen to it HERE. Yes, I need more hours in the day! And yes, I strive to stop and smell the roses and not be too busy for my loved ones but then....how can I do all I need to do?

I can't say I can cut much out of my daily to do's. I am not going to cut my time with God, taking care of my family, work (although some days I may want to!), and all those household chores (but I do less than I hope for). And then there is exercising. That is one thing that tends to be cut back to 10-15 minutes when I fully know I do need a good hour a day to stay at my best emotionally. But I am tired.

It is a double-edged sword - sleep more, workout less, and be more tired or wake up early, workout more, and be tired in a different way...but often this different way is indeed a better way.

Logically, I know this but right now I am tired and struggling to catch up. I have a never ending work project with no end in sight and no sense of accomplishment, I have a crazy week with extra horse lesson days and more stable hours for darling daughter, and I still have the clothes to do, lunches to make, and dinner to make....and I am flopping. I even forgot to make my child's lunch today as I rushed out the door to work....late....once again. And I barely had time to run a mile! One lousy mile!!!!

On top of that, the things I can turn to for motivation are even kicking me in the butt. My fitbit challenge group is leaving me behind as I struggle to get my steps in because I am stuck in the car, at my desk, in meetings, dying to workout and move, and trying to get all that I need to do done....and this includes constant double scheduling of meetings and having to say, nope, can't be in two places at once and then once again, running out the door late to go get darling daughter from school too often than I would like to rush.

Yesterday, darling daughter even said, "ENOUGH! Everyone is RUSHING me!!!" I get it, sweetie, I get it.

I am feeling rushed, pushed, and asked to give more, more, more and barely have the time to take care of me. How can I stop and smell the roses when I am waist deep in dirty laundry...and I am doing a load almost every single day?! And today I need to start the next load when I finally get home close to 6 pm (and this is after leaving the house at 5:30 am!).

Each time I walk into the kitchen there are more dirty dishes to wash and each step in the bathroom leaves me with a dirty counter, sink, toilet, or floor that needs to be tended to.

Oh...and the squeaking pets. Literally by the way, squeaking and rattling saying "Feed ME!" but honestly, those pets are a breath of fresh air (if you ignore the stinky cages that are wreaking out to me....CLEAN ME!). At least when I feed them they seem to say, "Thank you!" and look genuinely happy that I am there.

Okay, darling daughter is pretty darn good at saying thank you too and is being pretty darn forgiving that I forgot to make her lunch. She is a great back-up plan and before you tell me she can help more, she helps A LOT! But right now she is also struggling to balance it all in these crazy weeks as she has more make up lesson days, homework, and trying to find moments where she can stop and smell the roses.

Somehow I need to carve out time to get a good run in very, very soon to help recalibrate my emotional self. Anyone want to shove me out of bed at 3 am tomorrow?

Daily Gratitude: I am thankful for all that God has given me.

Daily Bible Verse: Come now, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go into such and such a town and spend a year there and trade and make a profit”— yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes. Instead you ought to say, “If the Lord wills, we will live and do this or that.” ~ James 4:13-15

9.03.2018

August 2018 Training Report

August had its up's and down's --- pretty much like every other month in my life. I only worked out 26 hours. Not quite my hour a day goal but getting back in the groove with the school routine, extra horse days, hurricane warning days, and more I am pretty happy with what I sweated out.

Plus, I am back in doing some new workouts....with a twist. You see, Audible offered a great deal to its members to get Aaptiv workouts for free and I have been running to those and pushing myself so even though the hours are less, the effort is more!

Before I started this my last new workout was #24 on June 15th. I wrapped up August with 37 new workouts! How cool is that?! And I am really hoping I can get access to the Aaptiv workouts after the September 5th cut off date. So I am not giving up on my goal to nail 70 new workouts in 2018....at least, I am not giving up yet.

I also hope to break 10,000 streak miles this year so I need 1,170 miles in 2018 to nail that goal. With the 120 miles I ran in August I am at 981 miles for the year and 9, 811 streak miles. With God's ongoing help, I will nail this goal and quite possibly surpass it. That actually makes me happier than my cross training goal.

I have also added in some extra goals for myself that focus on my physical well-being. My overall heart health has dropped a bit (but it is still classified as very good according to FitBit) but I want to see if I can get that dip to at least stabilize or hopefully improve. I am looking at diet adjustments to help out with that. And of course, I am hoping the Aaptiv training will help. I think I have become a bit too complacent in my running and running pace and am happy to say, I am making pace improvements again!

This is after a year of slowing paces and I just was accepting it as a part of life. Runners hear it all the time. Women hear it all the time. You get older, things change, do not underestimate the power of menopause and your hormones.

The workouts are tough but doable and I love the focus on breathing and running form along the way. And those runs have consistently been at faster paces than my average for the past year and pretty close to my long ago days of marathon training run paces. Maybe not for as many miles, okay, absolutely not as many miles, but I am also doing speed work at paces I have never trained at since....well....maybe forever. I can't remember ever pushing myself to do 7'30" sprints! And 10 of them in a single workout too! For some that may not seem like much but for me it is HUGE.

So as my 46th birthday comes creeping up quite quickly I am going to keep running strong and happy and not give up on improving overall health, running faster, and perhaps shedding a few unwanted pounds. And I got my annual physical done on the 31st and am awaiting blood results.

But now onto a completely unrelated note and humble ask...

Y'all, if you could spare a dollar a podcast I adore may not be on the air much longer. She was able to get up and running with Kickstarter but those funds are gone and she just has enough left for a couple more months from donations that have come in past that Kickstarter and she is cutting back the podcasts from two a week to one a week to stretch things out.

The podcast is called Hello & Welcome! and is hosted by Kristine Franklin. All I want for my birthday is for this podcast to keep going and growing strong. In less than a year her reach has gone international but it is totally funded by cool people like all of us. So, if you could spare just a dollar, please donate today. She did not ask me to do this but I am praying for my 46th birthday that 46 people will donate in my honor so the show I love will keep going strong. Her shows truly lift my spirits and help me to be a better mom, wife, employee, me.

Thank you and God bless.

Love and Hugs from Erica G :)