2.14.2018

Going Silent for Lent


Today is Ash Wednesday, the first day of Lent. Lent is a time to honor the sacrifice of Christ, to reflect on the passion of the cross, and to prepare our minds, hearts, and spirits to truly celebrate the resurrection of Jesus. It lasts 40 days, not including Sundays. It is a period of fasting and hopefully prayer. It is more of a solemn time and this Lent I am giving up social media.

Why?

Because it truly does tug at my limited time and can lead to the increase of more sinful feelings of jealousy, envy, or pride at times. Those likes and the pull of comparison can tug on everyone in various degrees. Some days I can be more resilient but other days, not so much.

I stay connected primarily due to family and my wonderful Catholic connections but I do want to wean myself of this and to spend the next 40+ days in prayer. Prayer for my family. Prayer for my friends. Prayer for myself.

This is a tough season for me. Not because of Lent but February is my "hard month". My Dad's birthday is February 22 and March 31 marks the 8th anniversary of his death after a heartbreaking battle with cancer. Leukemia to be exact. On top of that, a wonderful man that I truly loved as a second dad and mentor just died this February 10 after battling brain cancer. Fortunately February 10 is also my daughter's birthday - she turned 10! - so I can see joy in the suffering. It seems there is a lot God has for me to focus and reflect on this Lent.

But I do have a slight concern. Traditionally I post in remembrance of my Dad on February 22 and March 31. I have prayed and prayed on this and how it impacts my Lenten fast. I did get a sense that a post on those two days would be acceptable, if, and only if, I could resist all temptation to read other posts, notifications, or get distracted and engage. I am not too sure I can do that. Seriously, do you think you could log onto facebook, drop a post, and not scroll? Yeah, me neither.

I want to honor my Dad and remember him so perhaps I can just do so with this blog post, which was written and scheduled prior to the beginning of Lent.

My Dad was an amazing man. My hero. A really cool and fun dude!

The last 2 photos are from the last times I saw him.
I wish I had some magical and inspirational words to say that can erase the suffering of grief but all I can say is I am thankful my Dad, and my friend, are no longer suffering the pains of cancer on Earth. The cancer robbed them of so much of their zeal for life. The essence of who they were still remained but you could see the toll of the devastating illness on them. That is something I would wish on no one. 

Great men seem to be few and far between. Perhaps it is because I have been hurt by so many, lied to by too many, scarred by some, belittled and insulted by others, or just used for their own personal desires or gain. At times it makes me wonder if good men still exist today. Men who will stand up to honor and protect women. Open the door for them. Build them up with encouraging words of support and accept them for who they are. Are not threatened by women and what women can offer to the world.

And then I realize, two such men existed in my life and count myself abundantly blessed. Two men who never said a hurtful, unkind word to me and seemed to genuinely accept me for who I am and encourage me to grow how I was supposed to grow. Thank you God for placing these men in my life.

Daily Gratitude: I am thankful for my daughter and her shining bright light during this time of sorrow.

Daily Bible Verse: For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us. ~ Romans 8:18

2.05.2018

January 2018 Training Report

I am pretty happy to say I worked out a total of 26 hours in January. I know, at first glance that does not seem much but that is close to an hour a day so I am happy when I consider where I am coming from --- a very rough fourth quarter in 2017. I also logged 85 miles and 7 new workouts!

If I keep at this pace throughout the remainder of 2018, I will log 1,020 miles and 84 new workouts. My 2018 goal is to break 10,000 streak miles which means I need to log 1,170 miles in 2018 and that means....run more! And I am not afraid of that as I am getting my running mojo back. I can do this!

My other 2018 goal was to log 70 new workouts and I am completely on par for achieving that. Yay me!

Seriously, this is worth celebrating big time as I was in the toughest and longest rut in my running life but thanks be to God, I am finally feeling like me....even if the past couple of days I have felt unmotivated and overwhelmed but even that is my typical me this time of year as work is overwhelming and crazy. Seriously, directing a race is hard. Be kind to race directors. It is tiring answering the same question a zillion times of day and you would not believe the gripes and complaints I hear about everything and race day isn't even here yet. Hopefully this torrential downpour of rain that I have experienced three times in the past 24 hours will be something of the past come Saturday.

And a blatant, begging ask...if you are on Maui please contact me regarding volunteering at the race. I need at least 15 more course marshals. It will be really, really fun.

On a happier note, January (or very early February as all my days are a blur right now) brought some really exciting news. I can now offer you, yes you!, 20% off of your SOS Rehydrate purchases when you use my coupon code EGFITNESS. Yes, this is an affiliate link as I am an SOS Ambassador and LOVE their hydration -- mango and coconut are quite delicious.

You can also get 10% off of your Bondi Band purchases and they have more than headbands. They have Bondi Wear now too! Awesome outfits to feel amazing in your workouts. Guys, this is a great gift for the active gals in your life. Just use EGFITNESS (yes, same coupon code, different company, different ambassadorship).

But back to January and goals. I am also doing better at getting up and working out dark and early again. It takes some real determination and let me tell you, it is hard to get that determination at 4 am in the morning. If you have any tips, please let me know. I would love them! The lure of coffee and bible time helps but it is still hard to pull myself out of the warm bed when it is so dark....let alone thundering like crazy. I flopped this morning convincing my lazy self that running on the treadmill in thunder and lightning was indeed not a good idea. Ummmmm.....once I got to work I realized how much better I would have felt emotionally if I just did it. I will remind myself of that come tomorrow morning when my alarm starts chiming at 3:30 am. Wish me luck!

How did your January go?

Daily Gratitude: I am thankful for the 85 miles I logged this month.

Daily Bible Verse: 
Psalm 127 --->
Unless the Lord builds the house,
    those who build it labor in vain.
Unless the Lord watches over the city,
    the watchman stays awake in vain.
It is in vain that you rise up early and go late to rest,
eating the bread of anxious toil;
    for he gives to his beloved sleep.
Lo, sons are a heritage from the Lord,
    the fruit of the womb a reward.
Like arrows in the hand of a warrior
    are the sons of one’s youth.
Happy is the man who has
    his quiver full of them!
He shall not be put to shame
    when he speaks with his enemies in the gate.