3.31.2015

Why I am saying goodbye

Just the other day I came up with a blogging schedule for me and I was ready to go on that plan and then today while listening to Immaculate Heart Radio it sunk in. I do not want to blog anymore.

It isn't because I don't love to write and share my stories. I do! That is what kept me going so long after I got that first inkling that maybe it is time to stop. I am stopping because I am tired of the games and pressure. I am tired about hearing you need more instagram followers, you should do this, you should do that, you need to engage more, get more creative, have this kind of look, etc. Sure, some of those tips may be well meaning but in all reality, it is a game. I game I despised in high school and a game I do not want to play as a 42 year old adult. Life is not a popularity contest or about what can I get if I do this. Life is about people.

If you have been following my blog for awhile I am sure you have noticed some of my shifting focuses over the past year as I started running for Toby and talking more about my faith. I have goals in my life and I don't want to be pulled off track by games that aren't really going to get me where I want to go. I want to reach my final days knowing that I did good in the world. That I made a positive difference.

For awhile I fooled myself I was doing that through blogging. Sure, I may have touched lives and made a difference but there is the growing undercurrent of that never dying game. There are those non-stop emails of promote this, do this, sell this. And yes, I have hopped onto opportunities that did ring true to my core beliefs. In fact, you will be seeing a couple of more posts from that that fulfill my final commitments because that is the type of gal I am. If I tell you I will do something, I will do it. I have a subscription box to tell you about and by golly, is is the best I have seen to date! And I have a book to tell you about that I am finishing right now and I am thinking that would be the PERFECT final post. I don't want my blog ended on the sad notes of the blogging games. I want to end on a positive note.

That being sad, in my years of blogging, and this is my 999th post, I have met wonderful people. Some in person, some still online. You know if you are one of those wonderful people that truly touched my heart and soul because we are "real" friends on facebook and not just connected through my blog. My blogging journey was part of my life that God laid out for me to follow...I have no doubt. But as my faith grows deeper and my desire to serve Him, I realize blogging is getting in the way. I do not want to feel compelled to check stats, write a post, share an image, etc. I want that time to do bigger things.

I want to pray.

I want to study the bible.

I want to help the hungry.

I want to run more with my daughter.

I want to make a difference in peolple's lives in a more one-on-one fashion.

I want to become more active in the church I belong to. The sisters that have been serving the church for 47 years are leaving. Their numbers are too low and they are stretched too thin. There will be a service gap there. I wonder if I am being called to help out more there.

I want to invest in the relationships in my life. When people come for seasonal visits, I want to spend more time with them. I want to spend more time with darling daughter and have the time to try to crochet her that hat she wants. I am doing it now and she is overflowing with gratitude for just me trying. I want to nurture my relationship with my husband. I love him dearly and he just doesn't feel it.

I need to be a better wife, a better mom, a better servant to God. It is time to stop blogging and move forward and accept the baton God is handing me. It is time to let go of my familiar patterns and do something new. It is time to say "I will".

Once again, I have two more posts to write so I will have time to answer any questions you may have but after that....love and peace to you and God bless!

Daily Gratitude: I am thankful for being able to see that it is time to change course in life.

Daily Bible Verse: His master replied, 'Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness! ~ Matthew 25:23

25 comments:

  1. I will be sorry to see you leave but I am happy for you to have made a decision that is right for you. Of course I wish you nothing but joy and peace as you move forward with your life and your growing daughter!

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    1. Thank you so much Elle! You have been part of my journey for so long you feel like family.

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  2. I understand completely! Congratulations on making a hard decision. Wishing you all the best!

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    1. Mahalo Judy and so happy we will still be in touch via USSRA!

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  3. Amen! You are here to serve His divine purpose. In the end he will fulfill ALL of your needs if you keep your eyes and heart on serving Him. God bless you, I enjoyed your blog, can't wait to read those future posts and move forward in your purpose.

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    1. Thank you so much for your support. I honestly felt a warm virtual hug.

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  4. I totally understand why you have made this decision and fully support you! I will miss reading your posts and hope we can become one of those " real life" Facebook friends. May God's love over flow in you and may you live an Ephesians 3:20 Life!

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    1. Send you a request so we can continue our spiritual growth together.

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  5. Love this 999th post, my blog has been silent for many months now....it's not closed yet....I am also tired of the games and pressure. I have notthe courage to end it yet....maybe I am not ready...I don't know....

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    1. Follow your heart. Mine has been grower quieter over the months. I won't remove the public profile and never know if I will be led back to it in the future but for now....it is time to pursue this new path.

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  6. I'm sorry to see you leave but follow where God is leading is by far the most important! He will fill your heart and life with the things that glorify Him!

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    1. Mahalo Nancy! You too have been a part of my life for many years.

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  7. if you enjoy blogging then the rest of it doesn't matter. do this for you and forget about the other stuff, that is for people who make it a job or business. I chose to do that so yup I gotta play the game, but that doesn't mean you can't just blog to love it!

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    1. So true Amanda and I do intend to keep my blog public and the rest there in case the path leads me back to it. Right now I feel too much pull in too many different directions as I follow a path I know I am to be on. It takes great strength and who knows....maybe I will share more one day.

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    2. Amanda, I thought more on your comment when I was running and had to add that I think there is always some performance pressure because even if you are blogging for fun, you still want your posts to reach people and have an impact. Have a great day!

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  8. I will truly miss your blog. I've enjoyed reading as your journey has changed. And being a part time Hawaii girl, well I just love your island running!

    Can I make one suggestion? Don't delete your blog. You can make it private (with no one reading) but don't delete anything, at least for now. I have a friend who did that. After several years of blogging, she was done, deleted the entire thing. About 15 months later she returned, but all her previous posts were gone.

    Keep running for Toby and God and joy! Blessing on you, Erica!

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    1. Great suggestion Kathy and right now my plan is to keep the blog public and yes, it may go private but no, I will not be deleting it for nothing else than it is a source of stories, etc. that I can share with darling daughter. And you are so right, months from now my path may come back to blogging.

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  9. I'm sorry to see you go but I understand totally.

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  10. I will miss your blog and your presence. Sounds like it's the right time and the right thing for you and you have such valuable plans!

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  11. I am tired about hearing you need more instagram followers, you should do this, you should do that, you need to engage more, get more creative, have this kind of look, etc <<<< this so much. It's stressful when you're constantly told you're not doing enough. I believe in quality over quantity and it sucks that companies/programs/etc do not believe in that.

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