9.12.2014

Which path do I follow?

I find it quite interesting that I popped on to blog today to see this post is receiving a lot of attention Boston vs. An Ultra. It is a post from May this year but the question still lurks in the back of my mind. How long do I continue to try to go faster and when do I try to start to go longer? Both are dreams of mine but sometimes it is hard to determine what path you are to follow.
today:

The Road Not Taken 
by Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,   
And sorry I could not travel both   
And be one traveler, long I stood   
And looked down one as far as I could   
To where it bent in the undergrowth;           

Then took the other, as just as fair,   
And having perhaps the better claim,   
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;   
Though as for that the passing there   
Had worn them really about the same,          

And both that morning equally lay   
In leaves no step had trodden black.   
Oh, I kept the first for another day!   
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,   
I doubted if I should ever come back.           

I shall be telling this with a sigh   
Somewhere ages and ages hence:   
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—   
I took the one less traveled by,   

And that has made all the difference.

Oh how I love that poem and am forever grateful for that book of Robert Frost poetry my dad gave me years ago to read. This one line forever comes back into my mind....Two roads diverged in a wood, and I -- I took the one less traveled by....

Does this help me decide between a marathon or an ultra? Nope. That is not the purpose. I was just intrigued that a post focused on decisions was getting so much attention today when I feel I am at a crossroads.

There is so much I want to do and achieve in life but ultimately, I want to make a difference. I want there to be meaning to my life. I want to know I did everything in my power to be the best me, the best mom, the best wife, the best daughter, the best employee that I can be. I am not asking for perfection. That doesn't exist. I want my words to be kind, supporting, and uplifting. I want to rest my head down with confidence knowing I did do my very best to be loving, gentle, and kind. That I passed on words of encouragement, support, and knowledge. That I made a positive impact even if it was just a tiny ripples. Ripples grow bigger.

In addition to running daily, doing yoga daily, and training for a marathon I have a full time job. I have now added in more priorities in my life. Getting darling daughter to Sunday School and mass afterwards, which takes Sundays out of long run days forcing me to run long at home on the treadmill the bulk of the time. This could impact my training but that is okay. I am thankful I have a home treadmill...that I can train and hit the miles I want and still contribute to the spiritual growth of my child. I am embarking on my own bible studies and love the time to read things that get me thinking about what I am doing and what I can be doing better. I have incorporated some crazy changes in my family's life and hope that it all turns out wonderfully well. Silly small changes like Family Game Night and lighting a candle every night now for my peace of mind, reminding me I am blessed, and filling the home with sweet scents. I want to make a happy home. 

I am also on a mission to bring awareness to Down Syndrome. You will be reading more about that later in a future post but I am so excited for the crossroads that I came upon. I am taking the road less traveled. I am pushing aside fears, insecurities, hesitations, and having faith. I am making ripples and I can only hope they are good.

Have a beautiful Friday!

Daily Gratitude: I am thankful for my freedom of speech.
Daily Affirmation: My spirituality is a strength.

2 comments:

  1. Oh wow, this post spoke to me more than any post I've read in quite some time. So real. Maybe I loved it because you used poetry and you light candles and play family games? ha! Or maybe I loved it because I've been trying to make the same decision on where I'm at with life...running...etc. I ultimately decided to run Boston 2015...at least I'm registered. But I'm not sure how I'll train for it yet. I could go for a personal best or I could just run enough to finish it and have FUN running slower. I'm thinking it could really be a good training run for a May 50k with my husband...our first ultra together. You have me more intrigued about you now... Wish we could have had coffee with this post. :)

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    1. Wouldn't it be great if we could sit down with a cup of coffee, or herbal tea, and talk running goals?

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