I wanted to post today but then thought, no. I am going to take a break and reflect on things while training my butt off but then I really, really, really wanted to share my thoughts this morning....and in particular, this prayer.
"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
the courage to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference."
This prayer has popped in and out of my mind throughout my lifetime and it sprang back into me today.
Let's look at this week and what left me feeling vulnerable.
Issue: Unquestionable/icky site linking to my blog
Reality: I can't control this. I did talk to a techy friend who confirmed such...unless I want to make my site private but he went on to point out what I already know, it kinda defeats the purpose of writing a motivational running blog.
What I will do: Not get paranoid over a few hits (really, just 8) over 24 hours. And you know what, I can just not look too and I usually don't look at the analytics much. I mean, I really can't control it so why worry about it?
What I can control: My blog content.
Issue: Undercover cop doing odd driving behavior which resulted in me feeling followed.
Reality: Maybe he was following me, maybe he was just driving quite weird. Thing is, if he was following me he was just hoping I would speed so he could give me a ticket as he pulled off from the side of the road (opposite going traffic by the way) to turn around to my side of the road, pulled over in front of me, and then scooted in behind me.
What I will do: Get over it and stop worrying.
What I can control: How I drive. It may have been nothing but it made me uncomfortable. I pulled into a busy parking lot and just let he go on his merry way.
So you see, it was really just little, insignificant things added to perhaps intense, overwhelming, marathon training emotions and my response was a bit crazy. Really, when I told the story to my sister on the phone I couldn't keep a straight face as it was somewhat comical. Seriously, try saying this with a straight face, "I think a cop was following me to see if I would speed so he could give me a ticket so I am not going to blog anymore."
The point is, blogging does open me up but I can control how open and exposed I am. I have always been safe and will always be safe. But what I am going to do now is take a little break from blogging, clear my head, and I will be back Monday, August 27th, to tell you more!
Love and Happiness!