Like most people, I go through life juggling all of the things that are important and/or necessary for me. On most days, I do just fine but this week my juggling skills have been questioned
When you juggle through life you have to make choices and sometimes something just has to give. To understand, here's sneak peak into my life. After getting up early (target time is 4:00 am) I run, go to work, pick up darling daughter, make lunches, make dinner, tend to the garden, tidy up the house, shower/bath time, play if time allots, and put darling daughter to bed. The bedtime routine runs from about 7:30 pm - 8:30 pm. Sometimes I am done by 8:00 pm but not always. This gives me maybe one hour of time with dear hubby before I zonk. I usually start heading to bed at 9:30 pm and climb in bed between 9:45 pm and 10:00 pm. So you can see, this gives me little sleep time and let's not even get into the fact that I don't often sleep through the night. Every little sound can wake me up some nights. Oh my!
and usually one night going to bed at the same time as darling daughter does the trick I didn't. Why? Guilt. I felt it would be selfish, that I was denying dear hubby our quality time, and I wanted our time together since it is so limited. But my juggling skills were being tested and something has to give to get back into form. That SLEEP ball kept slipping in my fingers and the only reason why I wasn't dropping it was because I was oversleeping and cutting back my running time. My "me" time was suffering. And for now, I am okay with that but I will not be okay if this persists through next week.
I need to get back into balance and set the solid foundation needed in my life. I need to make the pillars of EAT, SLEEP, MOVE, and ENJOY equal again....or at least a lot closer to equal. I need to realize that an evening without quality time with dear hubby isn't the worst because in all reality, if I go to bed early one night and miss it, I will be more in the present and alert the next night we have together. I need to take care of me and I plan to do just that starting tonight and moving through next week.
SLEEP is essential and I need more of it. The yawns while driving and at work at great tell-tales. And if I don't catch that ball and improve my juggling skills, I risk getting sick. And that is a price I don't want to pay.
Daily Gratitude: I am thankful dear hubby watched darling daughter while I was running my second run yesterday.
Daily Affirmation: I am in tune with my body.