Today I was going to report on my January stats but as I was running I started thinking about Dorothy's recent post - How Bad Do You Want It? I also got to thinking about my race tomorrow. Yep, in less than 24 hours I will be racing the Run for the Whales half marathon. And just by using the word racing here versus running I can tell I am making a mental shift. I want to break 2 hours. I want it bad. I do.
Really, who does that? Besides my husband. Argh! I also know I have rationale fears about race day tomorrow. I already told you about that lava field section I fear will be hot. I have talked to friends and they are doing a great job convincing me it won't be as bad as a fear. The best friends always know how to lie to you when you need it....or tell the truth in this case.....who knows. I have never run on that part of the island. I choose to believe they know better especially since one leaves nearby that region.
I also fear (guys....take a break here and come back the next paragraph if you are squeamish) Aunt Flo. She has the worst timing and is refusing to cooperate with me this month. I am really on a collision course here and there is not one thing I can do about it accept plan for a pit stop about mid-way'ish. Yep, it sucks, if she is pesky tomorrow I can't make 2 hours. However, I have already dreamed up a beautiful large towel pit stop with dear hubby as a worst case scenario. Is that a terrible thing? Don't know if I will pull it off though. I just don't want to waste one minute dealing with Mother Nature.
Welcome back guys! The question is....should I let my fears (which, if I was smart, I would call concerns) stop me? I think not. Somehow I need to pull myself together, get focused, and run. I know negative splits are wonderful but I can't start too slow....or too fast. I am nervous and it bugs me since I have run half's before. Here are my stats:
- 2:08:39 (9/2010)
- 2:02:22 (2/2011....this race, old course)
- 2:19:15 (4/2011....heat knocked me down)
- 2:07:13 (9/2011....2 weeks before marathon so I ran, didn't race)
- Nine hours of sleep last night
- Being able to run tomorrow in memory of Sherry Arnold and my Dad....he is always with me
- Nerves...it means I am on the right track
- God....I can only trust in Him and put my faith in Him
- My daughter's growing wisdom and words of advice