It is great living alone.
It is wonderful being able to run when you want, forever long you want, without having to worry about anyone else.
It is fantastic being able to cook for one.
Long bubble baths without being disturbed are amazing.
Life is simpler when you are single.
But in all reality.....
It is wonderful having a family to share your home with.
I love running with my daughter in the jogging stroller.
I love cooking meals that the whole family will enjoy.
Bubble baths with a preschooler are a blast.
Life is more exciting when you are married and a mom.
That mentality helped me endure my day yesterday. My darling daughter was having a tough one; therefore, I was having a tough one....or vice versa. I ended walking out of church with her since the behavior was getting ridiculous. Or should I say, I was too embarrassed to sit there much longer with her whining, little screams, and don't forget the mini-bite. I have never left in the middle of mass but I did and I went directly to the car, buckled her safely in her seat, turned on the AC, and stood outside. I needed a moment. I called my younger sister and cried my heart out. I felt mean, pathetic, and honestly, I felt like a complete failure. Once I dried my tears, I got into the car and noticed that mass had indeed been going on longer than normal. Hmmmm.....that could be a factor but I was still annoyed.
When things like this happen I look inside for answers especially once I have erased child hungry, child tired, and child sick from the list. None of those were issues so what was? I am stressed this time of year. Could be a factor she is picking up on? Or perhaps my tolerance is at a super low level and things are quite as bad as they seem.
In the sermon the priest stated that people don't really pray as much as they should because they believe God is weak. I don't know if the priest realized it but he challenged me to pray harder and better. Last night I prayed like crazy. I prayed for patience. I prayed for guidance. I prayed to find the way to help my darling daughter over this sassy hump and to get back to cooperation. And guess what? I saw the light.
So even if for one moment I was tempted to think the grass is greener for other moms, it is not the case. It is still just different. Children are a blessing and each mom has everything she needs inside to be the perfect mom at raising her darling ones. That is why they were entrusted to our care.
Today I am grateful for:
- The power of prayer
- Bad moments that teach us a valuable lesson
- Relaxation sounds apps....gotta love it!
- Christmas parties
- Solo bubble baths when my darling daughter comes running to me every 30 seconds to show me something else she made for me.