I aim to be a positive person and to see the gifts in life but I find myself in an emotional rut I can't get out of; therefore, I am going to share it and hopefully find the answer through forcing myself to verbalize what's going on.
I want to be a successful runner and would like that to be "my thing". I am not asking to be super speedy just that running can be special to me in my life. Now don't get me wrong, I don't want to be the only runner out there. I really want others to run too because I love it so much and really, how much fun would a race be if I was the only runner in the world?
What irks me is all the effort and sacrifices I put into my training to reach my successes knowing that perhaps my successes would be greater if I had more training time. But I am happy with my accomplishments and know with time, I can make improvements. Rationally, I know all this and I know I am really only competing against myself and doing the best I can at that moment. But emotionally I get so frustrated when others get successes without any perceived sacrifices.
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